Peytan

Good news!!! Peyatn is home!!! It's so nice to have her home now. Even with the sleepless nights and poopy diapers is sure is worth it. Not that I will ever do it again. She is so small and cute I just can't get enough of her. I just want to hold her all the time but I know she needs to rest. She is now starting to nurse really well. 2 feedings in a row. Good thing because I hate warming up bottles and all that crap. Breast feeding is so much easier. Anyway thanks for all your prayers and support.

Baby Blues

Well I now have the blues! I cry every day, I just wish my little girl was home with me. It's getting harder and harder to leave the hospital with out her. She needs me and I need her. I'm so thankful for the support of my friends and family because without them I don't know I could get through this. I'm finding it so hard not to have a mom around during this hard time. I know Fred's mom is there but it's not the same as your own. I don't understand why God always throughs such a loop in things. What are his plans for me and why aren't things any easier. God always tests me. I don't get it. I know he has his reasons but I don't get it. So please pray for me and Peytan and our family. Thanks.

June 17

Today was so nice I went to the hospital with my mother -in -law and we both got to hold the baby. The nusre wasn't to happy about that but to bad. It was the first time for her to hold the baby. She is so tiny I just can't belive it. I hope by next week we can bring her home with us. It's so hard to pump every three hours and not just feed her. Tiarra has only seen her 1 time and I hope tomorrow we can bring her in to see her again. I got to feed Peytan by bottle today and she ate a small amount and the rest was tube fed. But hey at least she ate half the bottle!! Other than that everything is going well.

June 16

Last night I went to the hospital and got to hold my little girl. What great feeling it is. She is so tiny. I got to feed her by tube but at least I got to hold her. My friend Becky came with me and sat beside me. She was not aloud to the her as only Fred and I are. They are very stricter about it. I was surprised that she was aloud to come in. So she is doing well she has lost only 3oz and she is going to have her first bath today. She is still having trouble sucking but I'm hoping it won't be much longer. Please continue to pray for her and us. Thanks again.

Baby!!

As you are all aware now we had a little girl! Peytan. She is doing well but still will be in the hospital for a few weeks. I would apprectiate all your prayers for her. It's very hard to leave without the baby. It's an empty feeling and so sad. Tiarra wrote Fred and I a letter today and it said "I love Peytan and Mom and Dad. I wish Peytan can come home" It made me cry. It was so nice of her to do that. Anyway thanks again for your thoughts and prayers. I will keep you updated.

June 12

Well it's been awhile since my last blogg. Nothing has changed. Well I'm alot bigger now than ever before. If I knew how to add pictures I would. 4 More weeks. The count down is on. I'm ready now to hold my little baby, cuddle it and wake up every few hours with it. I would much rather lack of sleep that swollen hands and Flinstone feet. Anyway Other than that nothing else has changed. School is almost over and that will be kinda nice. Tiarra won't be happy about it as she loves school, but to bad for her. Well enjoy your day to all of you! Oh I may have figured out this picture thing!