Prayer

Hey everyone,

For the last few weeks I have been pretty sick. Really bad headaches and sever dizziness & vision problems. My Dr. First told me it was a migrain, and then a sinus infection, but now he thinks it's more serious. He has now ordered for me to go for a cat scan ASAP. He said that he put me on the emergency list so it shouldn't be more than a few days to get in. Also blood tests and things like that. So if you could please pray for me and that is isn't a brain tumor or something like that I would really appreciate that.

Sleepless In Abbotsford

I don't know if I can go another day without sleep! Peytan is sick with croup. They think that's what it is. The Dr. told me to come back on Friday to check her again. She she has not slept in 2 nights. Well I shouldn't say that, she sleeps in 20 minutes intervals and then is up for 1 hour or so. My eyes are burning because I'm so sleepy. Darn kids they suck the life out of you. If it's not 1 kids it's the other in our house. Tiarra is always sick. And when she gets sick it can't just be a cold it has to be the worst thing possible, scarlet fever, 5th disease. It drives me crazy!!! Anyway on a better note Christmas is almost here!

Snow!

I love the snow! It makes everything looks so beautiful! Here is a few pictures of our first snow fall.

Katie

Hi Katie,

This is for you. I would love to get together with you. I'm so glad you found my blog. Thats so cool.my email is kfedrau@telus.net

Thursday

Well it's been awhile! Last night I went to this thing for Fred, his office did a client appreciation night. While I was getting ready I realized that I was even fatter than I thought and had nothing to wear. I took everything out of of the closet I mean everything and put it in a bag and gave it away. Fred laughed and thought it was funny. There was nothing I there that fits me. The shirts are all to short and tight. So now I own 2 pairs of pants and 4 shirts and 3 of those shirts are maternity shirts. This whole running thing isn't helping me lose weight. It's driving me crazy and I can't take it anymore. I freaking hate being fat!!!!

Pictures

California

Here are a few pictures from our trip to California. Our trip was great the weather was so nice, hot and sunny! For all you who don't know Fred's sister just got married in Monterey over the weekend. So we made a holiday out of it and stayed for a week. We went on a whale watching tour. It was great we saw a ton of whales and so many dolphins. It ended up I should have taken some Gravol as I ended up feeding the fish! Wow did I get sick. We also went to San Francisco and went on the cable car ride. Tiarra loved that! Anyway that's all for now. I think I'm going to try and have a nap, yes I know it's only 9:30am but I only had 3 hours of sleep. Peytan still does not freaking sleep well at night. It drives me crazy!

Wed.

Wow where has everyone been?? There is not alot of blogging going on here. I've been just as busy as everyone else so I can't talk. I'm really enjoying the 2 hours of sleep I get every night and I know it sure makes me a delight to be around. My poor hubby sure takes the worst of my attitude. I try real hard not to be grumpy but when your baby cries all day and doesn't sleep worth crap then how to you get through the day. Oh look she crying again. Her 20 min. nap must be up. She is the cutest thing ever when she's happy. Just just started laughing now. It's so cute.Here is a new picture of her.

Back to the blues!

Well today I have surely had enough! Thank you Shannon for the little break earlier today! I have a baby that all she does is cry!! In the past 2 nights I have slept for a total of 3 hours. Yes count it 1, 2, 3! I'm going out of my mind! I need to be rescued! Someone help me. Tiarra was such a good baby but wow is Peytan ever different. If she's not sleeping or eating she's crying. Please pray for me that God will give me the patience and strength to deal with her.

2 more weeks

Wow I don't know how people do it with 4 kids. I guess it makes a difference when there your own. It sure is alot more work. For all you who don't know I babysit 2 kids. The one little boy is a handful. The 2 kids who are cousins, fight all day long. And when John gets mad he will hit, spit, kick whatever he needs to do. It is so hard to control him. He is going through alot right now as his mom left him at daycare and never came back. So his Aunt is now taking care of him. His mom is such a bab mom I can't believe that someone could just leave there child! He is such a nice kid he just needs some love and attention. He is so happy to come here and is so excited when Fred is home. His Dad is not in the picture so having Fred around is the greatest thing to him. The other little girl is Saskia, she is so cute! But her mom is a single mom now trying to raise 2kids. I know it's hard for her. Please pray for them all. They sure need it. Anyway I have go before the baby wakes up. I should get dressed and clean up after breakfast!

10 Questions

10 Questions:
1) Grade 2 teacher? My Mom
2) Childhood pet? We had 2 Boxers
3) First kiss? My Brothers friend Justin
4) First crush? Josh
5) Biggest weakness? chocolate
6) First cigarette? Never
7) How old when I got married? 20
8) What I begged my parents for? Car
9) What I always wanted? A great husband like Fred!
10) What I would never do? hmmm don't know

Cute Pictures!!

Here is my little girl Smiling. And sleeping! She is so darn cute I could eat her. I can't believe how big she is getting now. She is 8 lbs 10 oz. She is going for some tests next week to see why she stops breathing. The Dr. is now a little worried that it has happend 3 times. And 2 times was in 24 hours. So hopefully she will be fine!

Sunshine!!

Ok I can now enjoy the sun. We went to White Pine Beach yesterday and it was so nice to sit in the hot sun all day. I sure needed to work on my tan. I was surprised Peytan slept almost the whole time and well Tiarra just played in the water and the sand. She had alot of fun. Then we went to Fred's ex girlfriends house for dinner. Weird hey. Anyway it was good. Here is a new picture of Peytan.

Sleep?

Ok it has now taken a toll on me. I'm tired all the time! Peyatn wakes up every hour and is awake for 30 minutes of that hour and then wakes up 30 minutes later. So I just fall asleep and she's up again. And we have to pick her up because she throws up all the time. She has reflux and is always throwing up. And sometimes she chokes on it and then stops breathing and goes blue! That's scary. She did that last night again and once today. I tried calling the Dr. But they never calls me back. Anyway that's the story. I'm sure she will start sleeping soon. She is getting so big already she is now 7 weeks old and 8 lbs. She is so very cute though. Well that's my days for now. Hope you all are having a great summer.

Being a Mom

Being a mom is the greatest thing ever! Knowing you created the wonderful little baby and that they have to trust in you for everything. It's a little scary but so great. This time having a baby was such a different experience. I'm loving it this time. Although I didn't love it last night. Peytan was awake all night. At least Fred got up with her too but I can't go to sleep when I hear her crying. So today I'm very tired but oh well. It's a beautiful day and we are going to have a long hot tired day. Tiarra's front tooth fell out in the middle of the night. She woke up and said Daddy my tooth fell out in my mouth. So now she looks silly, I'm not a fan of those pictures with the missing teeth but I guess it's cute. Well I hope everyone enjoys the beautiful day!

Long Days

Well it's been awhile since I wrote anything. Well all is well here. Each day is so long when your running on a few hours of sleep. Peytan sleeps for only 1 1/2 hours ata time sometimes 2hours. So I get tired fast. She is doing well she is now 7lbs and getting bigger. She is so darn cute, I just love her so much. Well she is crying right now so I have to go pick her up before she throws up. She has reflux and has to take medicine for it now. Awww what to do hey. Well hope you all enjoy your day!

Peytan

Good news!!! Peyatn is home!!! It's so nice to have her home now. Even with the sleepless nights and poopy diapers is sure is worth it. Not that I will ever do it again. She is so small and cute I just can't get enough of her. I just want to hold her all the time but I know she needs to rest. She is now starting to nurse really well. 2 feedings in a row. Good thing because I hate warming up bottles and all that crap. Breast feeding is so much easier. Anyway thanks for all your prayers and support.

Baby Blues

Well I now have the blues! I cry every day, I just wish my little girl was home with me. It's getting harder and harder to leave the hospital with out her. She needs me and I need her. I'm so thankful for the support of my friends and family because without them I don't know I could get through this. I'm finding it so hard not to have a mom around during this hard time. I know Fred's mom is there but it's not the same as your own. I don't understand why God always throughs such a loop in things. What are his plans for me and why aren't things any easier. God always tests me. I don't get it. I know he has his reasons but I don't get it. So please pray for me and Peytan and our family. Thanks.

June 17

Today was so nice I went to the hospital with my mother -in -law and we both got to hold the baby. The nusre wasn't to happy about that but to bad. It was the first time for her to hold the baby. She is so tiny I just can't belive it. I hope by next week we can bring her home with us. It's so hard to pump every three hours and not just feed her. Tiarra has only seen her 1 time and I hope tomorrow we can bring her in to see her again. I got to feed Peytan by bottle today and she ate a small amount and the rest was tube fed. But hey at least she ate half the bottle!! Other than that everything is going well.

June 16

Last night I went to the hospital and got to hold my little girl. What great feeling it is. She is so tiny. I got to feed her by tube but at least I got to hold her. My friend Becky came with me and sat beside me. She was not aloud to the her as only Fred and I are. They are very stricter about it. I was surprised that she was aloud to come in. So she is doing well she has lost only 3oz and she is going to have her first bath today. She is still having trouble sucking but I'm hoping it won't be much longer. Please continue to pray for her and us. Thanks again.

Baby!!

As you are all aware now we had a little girl! Peytan. She is doing well but still will be in the hospital for a few weeks. I would apprectiate all your prayers for her. It's very hard to leave without the baby. It's an empty feeling and so sad. Tiarra wrote Fred and I a letter today and it said "I love Peytan and Mom and Dad. I wish Peytan can come home" It made me cry. It was so nice of her to do that. Anyway thanks again for your thoughts and prayers. I will keep you updated.

June 12

Well it's been awhile since my last blogg. Nothing has changed. Well I'm alot bigger now than ever before. If I knew how to add pictures I would. 4 More weeks. The count down is on. I'm ready now to hold my little baby, cuddle it and wake up every few hours with it. I would much rather lack of sleep that swollen hands and Flinstone feet. Anyway Other than that nothing else has changed. School is almost over and that will be kinda nice. Tiarra won't be happy about it as she loves school, but to bad for her. Well enjoy your day to all of you! Oh I may have figured out this picture thing!

Monday!

So the weekend is over. That's to bad because I enjoyed it so much. We went down to Deception pass on Saturday for the whole day. It turned out to be a beautiful day. Friends of ours were camping down there. If Fred would have had his way we would have camped too. I think that's funny. Can you see me sleeping in a hot tent in a sleeping bag. Not likely. He tried though. Then Sunday we picked up Fred's mom and we all went to the Rodeo. It was fun and again not to hot. Fred's mom even went on the Ferris Wheel with Tiarra. It was very cute. And last night we went to his parents for dinner and cards. So now it's back to everyday life. I'm just getting the kids ready for school and then I have to go to Walmart. I hope it's not to busy. Anyway hope you all have a great day.

Friday

Thanks goodness it's the weekend. I'm ready for it. I just hope it's not to hot but if it is than I will try and enjoy it. I'm so happy that there is only max 8 weeks left because I don't know if I can handle going to the Dr.'s and hearing her say oh ya you gained another 8 pounds in 2 weeks. That was so hard to hear that I cried when I left. So that brings my total to 30lbs. So sad. I guess it's just another bad week. Anyway it's almost over now. On monday I will 32 weeks.

Too Hot

Ok so I already hated being pregnant, now add the hot sun! What could be worse than swollen hands and feet. I can't handle this. I'm done!!!!!!!Having babies is just not for me. All of you who enjoy it, congrats. Well only a few more weeks and then there is the light at the end of the tunnel. So far can't see any light. Also thanks again for inviting me out to Earls. I had a great time. Hope we can all do it again soon.

Ten simple Pleasures

My 10 Simple Pleasures
1. Spending time with Tiarra and Fred
2.Playing cards Friday nights with Fred's parents.
3.Thursday night girls night
4.Hanging out with Shannon
5.hot holidays
6.Date nighs with Fred
7.shopping when I'm not pregnant
8.scrapbooking
9.watching Tiarra dance and skate
10.just having great family and friends

April 29

Well I officially hate being pregnant and vow to never do it again!!!! I'm so frusterated and noboday understands unless you go through what I'm going through. Thanks for all your support Shannon and listenening to me complain. I know there is only a few more weeks to go but at the same time a few is so far away. I know in the end it's worth all pain and weight gain, but right now I don't see that far. I'm doing everything they tell me and it's still not working. So now the whole frusteration is coming out and me being sad and mad all the time. I think I need to just get away and do soemthing fun. Well thats my exciting day in a bubble.

Friday

Well Fred is gone for the whole weekend! Tiarra is also going away for the weekend. I'm feeling very sad and don't know what to do. I think it's all the hormones of being pregnant. I don't think i've ever cried because Fred has went away. I don't know what the problem is. Maybe it's nerves sending Tiarra to my Dad's house is a big thing as well. Someplace where she has never stayed before and someone she doesn't see very often. Ok I keep telling myself everything is ok. Well thats my day today.

Candle Party

Ok so I'm having a candle party again!! But I'm not having it at my house it will be an open party and you can just look at the books and order from there. No hassles and that way there is no pressure. Please let me know if that works for you and I can drop off some books and possibly the new scents.

April 10

Ok here we go another week. It was so nice to have to whole weekend off. No work, no arguing with dumb men! ( other than Fred) I guess it's a short school week though Easter this weekend. I don't know what I'm going to do with all my extra time. I guess be on here more and see what all you have to say.

Monday!

Well we finally bought a new washer and dryer today!!!! How very exciting for me. They get delivered on Wed. Well thats about all the excitment I can handle.

Work

Ok so here I go complaining again!! I so don't want to go to work this weekend. I can't do it anymore. I'm tiret just thinking about work. Fred is home all day tomorrow and has no training or anything so it sucks that I have to go to work and he doesn't. Well thats all for me just wanted to say that I HATE work!!!!!!

Tuesday

Well another fun day doing nothing! I hate Tuesday's Fred is gone from 10am - 9pm. Oh wait he comes home for lunch and expects it to be ready at 12pm and then again comes home for dinner at 5or so and wants dinner ready he only has 45min before he has to be back at the office. Well I'm tired of it. I want to go out and have an evening of doing something too! I have to get ready I don't think I should pick up the kids form school in my pj's. Anyway until later!

Sunday

Oh wow work is done for this weekend! I can't believe how much freaking work it is being pregnant and then working at my job too. I can't wait till this is all over!! I hope only a few more weeks. It seems so far away but it's just around the corner. 13 more weeks. Anyway that is my wonderful day and now I'm going to rest.

Hey how do I add people to my thing. I'm new at this.

Hey Shannon,

Sorry I've been so busy lately and also not feeling very well. Tuesday and Wed. I didn't answer the phone all day (also because I didn't feel like running upstairs to get it) and I forgot to check the messages until Fred called me last night and said. Have you listened to the messages yet. I told him no and so he told me your messages. I don't have the video but check inside the camera case. I will look again. And I guess Fred told you that we will babysit. Talk to you later.

Tuesday

Ok, here you go Shannon. I finally did it. I'm ready for you now.